THE TABLE
FOR PEOPLE WHO KNOW EXACTLY WHAT NEEDS TO CHANGE, BUT ARE AFRAID OF WHAT CHOOSING IT MIGHT REQUIRE.
You already know.
You know what isn’t working.
You know what you want instead.
You’ve probably known for a while.
The conversation has happened in your head a thousand times.
You imagine the other life.
You picture yourself leaving.
You imagine the business you could build.
The place you could live.
The person you could become.
You feel it in your body.
That tightness in your solar plexus.
That quiet, persistent knowing you carry around while getting on with everything else.
And then you go back to your life.
You do the job.
You go home.
You have dinner.
You make plans.
You laugh with your friends.
From the outside, everything looks normal.
But somewhere inside, you are living two lives.
The physical one you’re actually living.
And the one you’re constantly playing in your head.
And you’re starting to wonder how long you can keep doing that.
Because the thought that scares you isn’t only:
“What happens if I leave?”
It’s:
“What happens if I don’t?”
What if you get to the end of your life and realise you knew?
You knew what you wanted.
You knew what needed to change.
And you stayed anyway.
That is the territory of The Table.
YOU CAN BE GRATEFUL FOR YOUR LIFE AND STILL KNOW YOU WANT SOMETHING DIFFERENT.
You’ve got a good life.
You’re lucky.
Nobody’s happy in their business.
Life isn’t perfect.
Why can’t you just be happy with what you’ve got?
Maybe you’ve heard these things from other people.
Maybe you’ve said them to yourself.
Because it’s incredibly easy to turn wanting something different into evidence that something is wrong with you.
But you can love your partner and know the relationship isn’t right for you.
You can be successful and know the work is slowly killing something inside you.
You can have a beautiful home and know you want to leave.
You can be grateful for everything you’ve been given and still know:
This isn’t the life I want to keep living.
Wanting more doesn’t make you ungrateful.
It doesn’t mean you’re selfish, unreasonable or asking for too much.
Sometimes it simply means you’re finally telling yourself the truth.
THE PROBLEM ISN’T THAT YOU DON’T KNOW.
You know.
That’s what makes it so fucking difficult.
Because once you admit what you know, you have to face what choosing it might cost.
Security.
Money.
A relationship.
A home.
Your reputation.
Other people’s approval.
The identity you’ve built.
The possibility that you might fail.
The possibility that you might succeed and have to become someone new.
So you stay.
And the question keeps coming back.
What if?
What if I actually did it?
What if I left?
What if I went?
What if I started?
What if I stopped?
What if I stayed?
What if I regret it?
What if I regret not doing it?
And round and round it goes.
Sometimes for years.
Until the fear of changing your life starts competing with the fear of reaching the end of it and knowing you never tried.
SO WE COME TO THE TABLE.
Not to figure out what you want.
You already know.
The Table is for people who are sitting in that uncomfortable space between knowing and choosing.
And you’re not sitting there alone.
Each Table brings together a small group of people who are asking their own version of the same questions.
How much longer can I keep doing this?
What am I actually afraid of?
What will happen if I choose myself?
What will happen if I don’t?
How much of my life am I willing to spend waiting for certainty?
What would I regret not doing?
You bring the question that’s been going around your head.
Someone else brings theirs.
And somewhere between the stories, the honesty and the conversation, you hear yourself differently.
Because sometimes you don’t need another person to tell you what to do.
You need to hear someone else say the thing you’ve been too afraid to say.
You need to realise you’re not the only one.
You need to see that another way of living is possible.
You need somewhere you can stop performing “fine” for 75 minutes and tell the truth.
That’s The Table.
75 minutes. Small group. One honest conversation.
No presentation.
No formula.
No expert telling you how to live.
I hold the space, guide the conversation and ask the questions.
Everyone else brings their real life.
I KNOW THIS TERRITORY BECAUSE I’M IN IT.
I didn’t create The Table because I’ve figured out how to live the perfect life.
I created it because I know what it feels like to desperately want something different and be terrified of choosing it.
A few years ago, I was unhappy with my work and my life.
I searched YouTube for:
“How to do work you love.”
I found Scott Dinsmore.
And something happened that I still remember.
I realised:
I have a choice.
I didn’t have to stay stuck in something I hated.
I could change.
Seeing Scott’s story, and hearing the stories of other people in his programme, showed me that change was actually possible.
The first thing I felt wasn’t excitement.
It was relief.
Then hope.
Because if another way was possible, maybe I wasn’t trapped.
But, knowing I had a choice didn’t make choosing it easy.
Eventually I had to face what that choice meant.
I left my marriage.
I started again.
And now I’m in Spain, trying to build a life and business that are actually mine.
And right now?
It isn’t going particularly smoothly.
I’ve gone through volunteering placements that weren’t right for me and had to leave them.
I’ve spent money on hostels and temporary accommodation I hadn’t planned to spend.
I’ve had to keep starting again.
I’m tired.
I’m frustrated.
I’m angry.
I’m questioning myself.
I’m questioning other people.
I’m questioning the universe.
And right now, I’m sitting in yet another situation that isn’t what I hoped it would be, thinking:
Why the fuck does this keep happening?
Part of me wants to keep going.
Part of me wants to throw the whole dream in the bin.
And there are moments when I can hear the voices of the people who doubted me.
Maybe they were right.
That is the honest truth of where I am.
But I’m still here.
Still asking the questions.
Still trying to find another way.
Still choosing the life I said I wanted, even when choosing it feels fucking hard.
And that is exactly the conversation I want to have with you.
Not from some polished place where I’ve got all the answers.
From here.
From the middle of it.
Because I’ve learned something about myself:
When I share what’s actually happening, people don’t just listen.
They start looking at their own lives.
They start asking their own questions.
They see something they hadn’t seen before.
And that’s why The Table exists.
WHAT IF YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO FIGURE IT OUT ALONE?
What if there were other people who understood the feeling?
People who knew exactly what they wanted to change.
People who were scared too.
People who were tired of carrying the question around in their heads.
People who didn’t need fixing.
People who didn’t need another person to tell them what their answer should be.
Just people who wanted somewhere to be honest about the choices they’re facing.
That’s who sits at The Table.
You don’t come because I have the answer.
You come because the conversation might help you hear your own.
THE NEXT TABLE
HOW DO YOU KEEP GOING WHEN EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE GOING AGAINST YOU?
That’s the question I’m living right now.
How do you keep moving when you’ve made the choice to change your life, but the evidence around you keeps telling you maybe you’ve made the wrong one?
When things keep going wrong.
When you’re exhausted.
When you’re spending money you don’t have.
When the plan keeps falling apart.
When you start wondering whether the people who told you it wouldn’t work were right.
When you are fucking sick of being brave.
How do you keep going?
That’s what we’ll explore at the next Table.
Not because I know the answer.
Because I’m asking it too.
75 minutes · Small group · Online
PULL UP A CHAIR →
Come with your experience.
Come with your anger.
Come with your doubt.
Come with your hope.
Come with the question that’s been going around your head.
You don’t have to arrive knowing what happens next.
Speaking From experience
Before The Table, I spent years speaking about anxiety, self-awareness, and the things that shape how we live.
I still love speaking.
Not because I have all the answers, but because I love exploring the questions underneath how we live, work, think and make choices.
And I love it when the experiences and the converstaions I’m having with myself change something in others.
This short showreel brings together two talks I gave, one on slowing down and one on anxiety.
It’s a glimpse of me doing what I love: speaking, exploring ideas and connecting with people.
Words From people I've Worked With
YOU KNOW THE QUESTION.
You’ve probably been carrying it for a while.
You know what you want to change.
You know what you want more of.
You know the life you keep imagining.
The difficult bit is choosing it when you don’t know exactly what comes next.
That’s what The Table is for.
A small group of people, sitting down for 75 minutes to talk honestly about the things they already know, but haven’t yet found the courage, clarity or space to act on.
You don’t come to The Table for someone to tell you what to do.
You come to hear yourself.
To hear other people.
To ask the question out loud.
And sometimes, hearing someone else say the thing you’ve been thinking is enough to shift something.
PULL UP A CHAIR.
The next Table
THURSDAY OCTOBER 1ST · 19:30 SPAIN TIME · ONLINE
75 minutes · 6–8 people · £25
