Do you catch yourself envying those people who have the freedom to create their own lives? Not tied by the same rules as everyone else.
The truth is you’ve never really felt you fit in. You’ve always been aware that you think and feel differently from those around you. Your family and friends refer to you as the quirky one, the one who thinks differently, maybe even a rebel. You’re successful in your work and life and everyone tells you you should be happy, but the truth is you don’t feel it. You feel bored, restless and unfulfilled, and your days are filled with escaping into daydreams, watching videos of people living the life you dream of and fantasising over how you’d do it.
The lives of those around you don’t excite you. You feel frustrated and bored with the same conversations and routines. When friends and family talk about their lives and the future whether it’s plans for Christmas, next year’s holiday or where you’ll all be in five years you feel frustrated, panicked, and trapped. It’s not what you want.
You’re constantly going back and forth in your mind trying to see if you could just be happy with the status quo. You’ve wondered if maybe you just think you want something different but that the reality would be disappointing, but you also feel you owe it to yourself to try and fear the regret of never trying. But where would you even start?
You want certainty about what you really want. The energy and courage to go after it, but right now you feel so overwhelmed and trapped between by your own thoughts and your life that you can’t think clearly.